All of the flowers I gave her

I've always wanted to watch Berserk, but never got around doing it. Believe it or not, when I was a teen I read the comics, well, not all of them, but some of the volumes that a friend lent my sister. Was I too young for that crazy violent shit? Sure. Would I read it anyway? Of course hahaha.

So today, I started watching the anime... and oh boy, are we in for a ride here. Don't let me get started on how much of it we can find in Dark Souls, because I guess everyone knows by now. But holy cow (I just typed holy coq and was tempted to leave it like that, but let's behave a bit here).

Anyway, while watching episode 2, I got the urge to make some icons. And I was amused by the fact that I can literaly take a screenshot with "imp paint" and paste it on photoshop from Netflix. We could not do this shit with regular videos before! (before meaning eons ago lol). So yeah, I got me some new icons of these pretty creatures.

Just like I did with this post, I thought it would be great to share today's icons, since they do not qualify for a proper batch to post at my graphics community lol. So here they are! Feel free to take, use, and leave me a comment if you also love Berserk ♥


I've always had an obsession with Casca. That character blew my mind when I was a teen. Love Berserk urgh help.

I may or may not end up buying my own domain AGAIN. After years of letting my last domain rot to death. The spark came from studying frontend development, as you may have read in my previous posts, but also because I found the personal site of a girl who also let her own domain rot, but came back in 2025 after many years of inactivity. And... that resonates lol. So, who knows. I may do it. Maybe just start with Neocities haha! Maybe go all the way and buy my domain. But I would need a name and I'm very undecissive. So...

Lately, I've been craving for my own personal space again. Not just physically, although that too, but on the web. It's been ages since I had my own website, and I totally forget about updating this blog because it feels quite lonely, with all the social networks and apps nowadays (I sound like an old woman despite being 35, blame it on having experienced the 2000's internet hahaha).

Anyway, I thought I might as well just come back at blogging. I plan on creating a new layout for this journal, now that I'm into coding again. Which brings us to the next topic: I finally started studying frontend development by myself, using freeCodeCamp. My goal is to pass all certifications, and finally be able to make a job change. More on this later, I guess.


My current curriculum looks like this, I'm well into the course and I think I will finish the Responsive Web Design Certification this month. Then, it's Javascript time! I'm as excited as I am nervous about it. Or scared. Or both.


Anyway! This seems like a good start for my comeback. Let me use my Roland Orzabal "books" icon, since we are talking about studying hahaha. I love it. I simply love it.

Here I am. I failed my last teacher opposition exam. I spent a lot of money, an insane amount of time and effort, all for nothing. This is so traumatic, I don't even want to talk about it anymore (this was back in June-July...)

On the other hand, my niece was born a week and a half ago. Her name is Minerva and I'm in love with her and so proud of my sister.

I'm trying to find myself again. In old places. In new places. I don't know. I'm trying to slowly come back to my older self, the one where I felt at ease. The one that enjoyed time to herself. The one that did not just work her ass off and do everything else before having fun. The creative one, the one that enjoyed doing things. Coding, graphics, videos, podcasts.

I'm trying to find me.

Since I finished playing Orwell Keeping an Eye on You yesterday, I'm starting this game today. It looks fabulous! Plus I love point and click adventures.

In case you wonder how I got so much time on my hands to play this or that game, granted I'm jobless (well I have a couple of small jobs I do on the internet, plus my little candle shop I run with my boyfriend, and I study hard for the next selective opposition exam for teachers), but I'm also with covid right now. So besides it being weekend, which I always spend far from home at my boyfriend's, yeah that's my current situation haha.

I've been playing this super cool game where you investigate people in the name of "The Nation" and uncover a whole intrincated story by reading sites, blogs and listening to conversations. How cool is that? Haha! I hope to find new games like this one because the gosspier in me loves this system 😂.
Edit: SO I finished this game and it was super cool. Lots of plot twists and got me really hooked! Totally recommend it! ♥

I can't help finishing and starting Stephen King books! I literally binge on them. And that's about everything I've been doing lately, except studying.

SO. Last time I posted I went to PortAventura for 3 days straight and made a video about it. Right? Guess where I'll be going again next week HAHAHA.

Just a little wrap up of what life is like lately:

Aaron and I opened a candle shop and it's doing great! I'll talk about this again soon.

I lost my job almost a year ago and have had no luck finding a new one. However I have a small internet job that helps pay the bills.

I'm studying hard for the next official exams that enable you to work as a teacher in the public system here in Spain. Next exam is on summer 2024!

I've been playing lots of videogames and also reading a lot of books. Will talk about those too soon, I hope.

I completely abandoned this place and I'm feeling a bit nostalgic about it lately. Not just DW but the whole site making, graphic making, designing, forum thing. I hate social networks because they killed the way in which we used to create and use websites way back.

Is anyone still making fansites? Any good forums for sharing sites and graphics? Amassment died and it was the only place I knew about and the last one I joined...

I stopped making layouts because I feel like my skills have rotten in comparison to everyone else. Would love to relearn but don't know of any good current resources. Ahh...

I don't know. I'm going on holiday this week and will post again soon when I'm back. Maybe think about the whole creative craving I'm having.

Also for anyone who might be interested, I vlog in Spanish at youtube. Don't know if many of you would be interested, but though I would leave my September wrap up over here anyway:

Watch on YouTube

I'm on vacation until the end of August and I really can't believe it. It's been a hell of a year (I'll be working on my current job for one year starting september). I fucking deserve it, honestly.

What will I do during vacation? Well, I want to basically read, play videogames, spend time with my boyfriend and take a rest.

Maybe even coming back at making graphics? Some Icons, maybe change my current layout here on dreamwidth. Or updating my network! Who knows.

I feel like big changes are coming so I need to be well rested before that happens. At least I hope some things change shortly...

Anyway! A small update to keep this thing alive and kicking. Hope everyone's safe and happy.